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Today was the day that you were going to tell Genji the truth. It was strange that he didn’t bring up the subject before now. It wasn’t as strange to you that Zenyatta never brought it up. You assumed for obvious reasons that it wasn’t important to him. That partially helped, but mostly it let you stew over it for a longer period of time, making it more difficult to broach the subject. You really should have brought this up sooner. Now you were going to appear to be a coward.
You messaged Genji and asked him to come to your room. Today you were to own up to being asexual. He came promptly, which distressed you more than you appreciated, but you shouldn’t put this off any longer.
He entered, greeted you with a hug, and started wandering the room, looking at your personal things. Specifically, the pictures of your family. Maybe he was recalling the reunion. You sat on your bed and watched him, trying not to curl up into an anxious, defensive ball.
“Genji?”
“Yes?” he replied immediately, “Why do you sound terrified?” he laughed.
“Ummm, I have something to tell you.”
“Okay,” Genji said, more serious.
He sat next to you on the bed. That was supposed to convey to you that he was ready to listen. It made you tense up. You considered yourself broken, because you couldn’t fulfill a basic need in a relationship.
“Are you alright?”
You weren’t. But you had to tell him. In case he wanted out of this relationship. You owed him that after he was so good to you. You couldn’t look at him. The floor was better to look at; it didn’t have eyes and wasn’t capable of passing judgement. You wished you were blind, though. And deaf. And…maybe nonexistent. That would be easier than doing this.
“Genji, I’m…I’m asexual.”
“Oh!”
Genji sounded surprised.
“That explains,” he said.
“Explains what?”
You looked at him, your curiosity winning over your tense nerves.
“When you didn’t initiate sex, I thought you weren’t attracted to me.”
You placed your hand on his thigh.
“No! You are a beautiful man,” you said earnestly.
“Stooop,” he playfully begged, gently squeezing your hand, “I am so red under here.”
You reached out your arms towards Genji, and the two of you met in the space between you for a hug. When you parted, you had to ask.
“So you’re okay with this?” you frowned at him.
“My home is with a bunch of omnic monks on top of a mountain. Do you think sex is something I need to live?”
“Good point.”
Genji leaned back in to lay the forehead of his helm against the side of your head, causing warmth to bubble up inside you.
“I love you,” he said.
“You, too.”
“You know. I never understood the Japanese way of never saying that out loud. It was easy for me to drop that habit when I left.”
Your heart was buoyant, with the weight of admitting the truth having lifted. You also felt your relationship with Genji was more complete, now that you knew nothing was missing in the first place. You wrapped your arm around his waist and settled your hand in the dip it made.
“That makes me happy.”
Now that the hard part was over, you had the easier task of telling Zenyatta. It went more smoothly than even you expected. He accepted the information gracefully.
“And you’re not mad that I took so long to tell you this important thing?”
“I assumed you would share your thoughts on the matter when you were ready,” he stated evenly.
“Well, shit,” you replied, slapping your hand to your cheek, “I made a big deal out of nothing.”
You stared at each blankly, now that your task was over (at least, you assumed he mirrored your expression). You gently nudged your way into his lap, murmuring about having a long day. Zenyatta let you, resting a hand on your back.